What the fuck what the fuck. why does love have to hurt this much. How did i ever get myself into this. You knew you could never have her the way you wanted her yet you let yourself fall for something that you knew would hurt you. I deserve this pain. I have been a shitty friend. I have been a shitty person. I went against all i belive in. I went agaisnt all i ever said i would never do.
Fuck it dude. Im so blah fuck it all to hell. why cant i ju8st ahve lots of drugs that would be great